it wasn't me
young man with teddy bear
san francisco
october, 2007

he's been working the intersection like a pin ball, or a yo-yo on a string. corner to corner; side to side. propelled or drawn, he rushes here and there, then waits.

i catch him in an alley with a friend and his bear. the friend is hunched behind a car and hovers away as i approach. the bear stays close.

name's wayland; from san mateo. been more than a year since i met him first.

he tells me of the places he's been and the places he likes. says he likes colorado best because people get along good there. he went there with his parents when he was about fifteen.

they took his picture with a baseball cap and his baseball glove raised to make a catch. he shows me how. says he was really close to his parents and he misses them.

they're dead now. his mom died in '97 from stomach cancer and his dad might as well have. his dad started shooting meth, got aids from a transvestite downtown and died soon after.

the transvestite was a friend of wayland's and he's pretty sure she's how his dad got infected. he's not totally sure though.

but he's sure it wasn't him.

"i had myself checked. it wasn't me. i'm just glad i didn't give it to him."


paladinsf says: the eyes wow all the best bob -- 08:28PM, October 15, 2007.
Olive Bordello says: happy 2 c your photography again! great portrait! -- 08:33PM, October 15, 2007.
that girl from flashdance says: Jeez, I never know what to comment on your pictures. My words don't say enough. A very hearfelt capture of a troubled soul. -- 08:34PM, October 15, 2007.
.btezra says: as always, the commentary you lend only heightens the gravity of the moment, the power of the portraiture, the intimacy shared...expressed it's a complete package -- 08:35PM, October 15, 2007.
{wyethhouse} says: oh wow...a heartbreaking weight to carry... -- 08:36PM, October 15, 2007.
jinxmcc says: we live the lives that we land in, most of us --- and many live even the toughest lives with astonishing grace for the circumstances. Thank you. -- 08:39PM, October 15, 2007.
Flutterbye_856 says: Always, so powerful! Wow! -- 08:52PM, October 15, 2007.
original_ann says: it's like life stands still for him. so very, very sad. -- 08:53PM, October 15, 2007.
Paradise Regained says: the furrowed brow is just too heartbreaking .. he looks so young and sort of puzzled about his life.. sooo sad.. -- 08:58PM, October 15, 2007.
Woodsta says: I have never seen a photo of yours that I did not find moving and inspiring. Superb work. -- 09:06PM, October 15, 2007.
SkyShaper says: thanks -- 09:12PM, October 15, 2007.
Baijg says: Larry Clark eat your heart out! (I can only relate to fiction when it comes to reality) -- 09:30PM, October 15, 2007.
Simontacchi says: Good shot! The stories always go so well with the photos! -- 09:34PM, October 15, 2007.
-fiction- says: very good. Amazing eyes! -- 09:40PM, October 15, 2007.
Luna Soledad says: This really picks the scab of human fragility... and survival. My heart goes out to Wayland. -- Seen on my Flickr home page. (?) -- 09:56PM, October 15, 2007.
mknobil says: How very far from peace .... -- 10:18PM, October 15, 2007.
Im Regen says: Great picture, so sad story. Thank you for sharing these stories. I like the honesty in your pictures, there's no hunt for the spectacular in them. It seems you are genuinely concerned about the persons portrayed and respect them. -- 10:40PM, October 15, 2007.
anitamz5 says: Mr. Stone I am so drawn to your work. Absolutely beautiful people!!! I lookl at your photos every day, anxiously waiting for you to post another one and another story. Thank you!!!! -- 11:06PM, October 15, 2007.
the mighty jimbo says: overall i still think you have the best photostream on flickr. -- 11:45PM, October 15, 2007.
r.domingos1 says: amazing shots -- 11:52PM, October 15, 2007.
Gui_C says: Thanks a lot for your comment...comming from a great photographer like you is a great honnor!!!!!!!! -- 12:27AM, October 16, 2007.
J_B - Johnny B says: Hey Tom when are you coming out with a book man? I think it is about time to go nationwide brother! jb -- 01:54AM, October 16, 2007.
mac218 says: ...please don't stop... -- 02:56AM, October 16, 2007.
Jeness May says: truth is not some beautiful field you walk into, packed lunch and blanket, picking daisies all they way. no, truth comes in forms unseen to our untrained eye. rearing a somewhat ugly head, resting on perspective's weary shoulders, truth shows up always. it's what we do with truth.....it's how we walk with truth. that, is loneliness. truth is lonely all set up to love anyways. -- 03:45AM, October 16, 2007.
* Ahmad Kavousian * says: Welcome back Tom, great work and story as always. -- 04:00AM, October 16, 2007.
vizeer says: So good. -- 04:17AM, October 16, 2007.
Xavito says: Muy simpatica salut!! -- 09:25AM, October 16, 2007.
Kid... says: so good, great shot really...i like this one -- 02:11PM, October 16, 2007.
Lette Moloney says: jeesus....ur stuff is deep....but Always great and welcomed :) -- 03:34PM, October 16, 2007.
Eric.Parker says: very moving - sad - good photograph Eric -- Seen in my contacts' photos. (?) -- 09:49PM, October 16, 2007.
Anitza V says: Wow. Just, wow. And seeing the progression of portraits and how you follow his story. It's just heart breaking. -- 10:16PM, October 16, 2007.
toledogirl51 says: Your talent is two-fold, not only do you take great images but you have an empathetic talent in getting these people to open up to you and tell you their story. Truly amazing! -- 11:19PM, October 16, 2007.
urtaur says: Simply great! -- 07:30AM, October 17, 2007.
azuridge says: wow... his face has changed too from last year -- 03:53AM, October 18, 2007.
jennifer buehrer says: oh my! what a sad story... beautiful photo. -- 02:36PM, October 18, 2007.
zcksjdn says: :( -- 07:25PM, October 19, 2007.
sMacshot-on semi hiatus says: Seeing the past photos and captions is just devastating. THIS is a life. And it's all he's got. What I complain about sometimes.... I have nothing to complain about. He deserves what I have. -- 11:33AM, October 20, 2007.
DAJ PUAJ says: www.ask.ne.jp/~yamanaka/arakan-e.html -- 04:27PM, October 22, 2007.
senioritacontraluz says: plas plas plas -- 11:01AM, October 24, 2007.
CrazyFast says: he looks so lost and scared. -- 02:35PM, October 27, 2007.
Heidi Lim! says: I love your stories and your pictures. They are truly poetic. -- 04:48AM, November 01, 2007.
Harpersbizarre says: Wow- you are just amazing! -- 01:54AM, November 10, 2007.
This crazy life * Tammy says: I'm new to your stream. Not even certain how I got here. This just breaks my heart. As I sit here in small town Virginia in my cozy little house I need to remember how very blessed I am. I'm sure the path to where he is could happen to any of us in a second. It takes someone special to be able to meet him and capture this and remove yourself from it. I'd be a puddle..........a puddle with a house full of trouble folks ;) -- 05:18PM, November 13, 2007.
61eternity says: I love to just pop in from australia and see your photos, they are so very good. Thankyou for showing us how fortunate we are. -- 03:29AM, November 14, 2007.
foxfjord says: His eyes are so haunting, emotions run through me, but in the end I'm just another speechless gawker. -- 10:37PM, November 14, 2007.
jeloe says: the good thing is wayland has alot of friends, including myself, who are there for him as much as we can be. also, if you didnt know, wayland is a bit of an SF pop culture icon for reasons far removed from his situation. tell him jeloe said whats up. -- 01:16AM, November 16, 2007.
ana-liza says: WOW! Absolutely incredible! -- 02:10PM, November 17, 2007.
hughhillphotography says: Stoneth, I see you do this a lot so I guess that like me you work with those on the streets and maybe as in my case was there yourself. good work. Best. -- 05:22PM, November 18, 2007.
kongrosian says: All your work is really GREAT!!!!! Bravo. -- 02:23PM, November 25, 2007.
Doodle-Zook says: Thanks again for sharing. For reminding. For humanizing. -- 01:40PM, November 27, 2007.
alonsodr says: Miss your work my friend! -- Seen on your photo stream. (?) -- 03:19PM, December 06, 2007.
CrazyFast says: please come back? :( -- 12:33AM, December 10, 2007.
rufousfelix says: Thanks for connecting and being a witness. -- 06:32PM, December 21, 2007.
mac218 says: @OVA ...not sure why you'd post your family photo here of all places... a family full of smiles on a beach beneath an incredible photo of a homeless, familyless, lonely young man... pretty insensitive. -- 09:57PM, December 23, 2007.
SkyShaper says: Very Happy Holidays ":o) -- 11:49PM, December 24, 2007.
Magpie Skinnies - Meg says: Love your photographs. It's sad to see him still on the streets and looking so lost. It's good that you can record a bit of their story and tell it to the world. -- 08:37PM, December 26, 2007.
About a Majordomo says: Hi, I'm an admin for a group called Art of the Black and White - Emotions [NEW ICON - POST!!!], and we'd love to have your photo added to the group. strong strong.... -- 05:38PM, December 28, 2007.
Benrut says: amazing story..well written, that dialouge like way that you put it works. youv'e got some serious balls to deal with these stories in person over and over. that's a quality i can really look up too. great photo too. it's ambivelent in a way.. on one hand there's a feeling that you didn't enter his private space too much, on the other hand the camera does say a lot. the angle and the contrast really demonstrates what you were trying to say. -- 05:56PM, December 29, 2007.
site not secure says: an arresting image wonderful simpatico -- 03:42PM, December 31, 2007.
AdAlberto Bianco says: Ciao, sono amministratore di un gruppo chiamato Ritual of Decadence [RoD] +Invited Only+. Ci farebbe piacere aggiungere le tuo foto al gruppo. I INVITE you to join this group ! VERLAINE "Ritual of Decadence" verlainescritta Please add this photo to the group www.flickr.com/groups/rod; It would be great to have you with us! -- 12:31AM, January 18, 2008.
Heidi Burton / Making Strangers says: i love that you post links to the same guy and that you revisit these people and carry on their stories :) i always wonder what happens to these individuals -- 05:30AM, January 27, 2008.
sinparpado says: Perfecto retrato....... -- 03:51PM, May 07, 2008.
Losviko says: This one is strong. -- 12:08PM, May 20, 2008.
Pixabilly says: This is great! Eyes got my attention. Love your photostream! -- 10:54AM, July 06, 2008.
Chad Lamar Butler says: Wow, i have seen this guy in the loin hundreds of times. It's cool to see the back story since i bump into him all the time. nice -- 03:56PM, July 17, 2008.
Anas Bukhash (nascity) says: Wow, powerful story ! -- 06:11AM, August 27, 2008.
mollybob says: amazing. the photo alone sparked my interest, but the story made it all the more poignant. Thanks for sharing with us. -- 04:34AM, September 02, 2008.
[my name is ludo] says: Hi, I'm an admin for a group called Fight Club - Politics & Society (project mayhem), and we'd love to have this added to the group! -- 09:22AM, October 02, 2008.
AH in Pgh says: His eyes are utterly haunted. I feel as though I've been punched, reading his story. -- 05:12PM, November 17, 2008.
JSDouble says: Hi, I'm an admin for a group called International Gothic, and we'd love to have this added to the group! -- 03:49AM, December 06, 2008.
keri ivy is seeing things for the first time says: heartbreaking. a tortured child left in the aging shell, and so confused by it all still. -- 12:01PM, January 21, 2009.
ffreshness says: great photo. he sort of looks like david bowie.. -- 11:07PM, May 17, 2009.
Harpersbizarre says: Jellis- sounds like you are the poser. You pose as someone who helps those who "truly need it". -- 01:35AM, January 18, 2010.
.btezra says: when people act as such it's usually because they have fears, or cannot comprehend something & don't want to understand and their only reaction is to lash out as such in quite an ugly way...best case scenario, ignore this person, they seemingly have greater issues to deal with internally than just lashing out at a photograph and a homeless person...it's sad but it's true -- 06:04PM, January 19, 2010.
Photo--Graphy says: Great capture -- 03:32PM, March 22, 2011.